Thursday, February 26, 2009

The Roller Coaster Rides

Last week I went to Orlando on vacation. I rode most of the roller coasters at the major parks with my nephew and my cousin. I used to love roller coasters, I still do. Looking at these pictures
I remember times when my life and my days felt like roller coasters.

As I have progressed in my road to recovery, I have stepped off the roller coaster life and roller coaster days...

Tonight, I am so thankful that I am not living on a roller coaster anymore. For the first time in a long time, I am living in peace, thankful for the good and the bad and taking from the roller coaster rides just the lessons learned. I am so glad I can now recognize a roller coaster ride when I see it and choose to stay away....


































Saturday, February 21, 2009

Anonymous Letter to ED

Hi All,
Here is the Anonymous letter to ED that Sarah Rainer read as a closing at our last support group meeting. It is one of the most beautiful and powerful letters to ED I have ever read. My prayer for you is that, one day, you will be ready to say good bye to ED and never call his name again.

We'll miss you Sarah and are so thankful that you will be starting ANAD in Palm Beach County.

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Dear ED,

In a world full of color and surprises, you blinded my vision with lies. You told me I wasn’t good enough. You promised me the best, and gave me the worst. Years of my life you stole from me, engulfed in food and numbness. You took my heart and my hair and left me empty and alone. You isolated me from the ones who loved me the most. You tried to kill me. My family and friends were devastated; you tried to destroy them too. How evil and sick could you be to turn one’s strengths into weaknesses, and life into death. You kept me trapped, suffocated, lifeless. You showed me the golden cage, which became darkness as soon as I stepped inside. You were not my friend.

I want you to know I have taken what you did and turned it into something good. I have grown stronger and more powerful. I have removed the sunglasses and experienced the world. I have taken my empty body and filled it with life. I now live the life Christ created for me. I see through all your lies and have counteracted them with truth. I have exposed you for what you truly are. At one point I thought I liked you, but now I realize I love myself even more. Good bye ED. I will not look back, nor will I ever call your name. I am no longer your slave.

- Me

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Thursday, February 12, 2009

On Letting Go

Why is it so hard to let go of old habits, behaviors, people, places and things? I am not completely sure but in my case it's usually because the following thoughts have crossed my mind: I am not good enough, I can't do it, I don't deserve any better, I don't like change, I do not know what is on the other side, I don't want to fail at something else, I don't want to get hurt again....

Sound familiar? What if the opposite were true?

I am good enough.

I can do it.

I deserve better.

I can learn to accept change as a part of life.

I can take small risks.

It is ok if I make mistakes. I will not fail but will also not succeed if I don't try.

I can learn to accept that getting hurt is a part of life and I can learn healthy ways for coping with pain.

I can learn new healthy habits, behaviors and open up to new opportunities and people in my life if I have the courage to let go of what does not work anymore.

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Questions for today: What is something you need to let go of (old habits, behaviors, people, places and things) in order to stay on the road to recovery? Can you do it on your own? Is there someone that can help you accomplish your goal?

peace, hope and love,

Lily

Saturday, February 7, 2009

Quote for Today












“Most people have come to prefer certain of life’s experiences and deny and reject others, unaware of the value of the hidden things that may come wrapped in plain and even ugly paper. In avoiding all pain and seeking comfort at all costs, we may be left without intimacy or compassion; in rejecting change and risk we often cheat ourselves of the quest; in denying our suffering we may never know our strength or our greatness."


~ Rachel Naomi Remen
(clinical professor of family and community medicine at the University of California at San Francisco School of Medicine)

Wednesday, February 4, 2009

What We All Want in Life is a Shot...Jason Took His

sometimes we can't even imagine what is possible until we try...



peace, hope and love,

Lily

Monday, February 2, 2009

Ten Steps To Positive Body Image












Last night, at our support group meeting, we talked about Ten Steps To Positive Body Image.

Which one of the following steps could you work on in order to move towards a positive body image?
Which one of these steps do you struggle with? Which ones work for you?

1) Appreciate all that your body can do. Every day your body carries you closer to your
dreams. Celebrate all of the amazing things your body does for you --running, dancing,
breathing, laughing, dreaming, etc.

2) Keep a top-10 list of things you like about yourself -- things that aren’t related to how
much you weigh or what you look like. Read your list often. Add to it as you become
aware of more things to like about you.

3) Remind yourself that “true beauty” is not simply skin-deep. When you feel good about
yourself and who you are, you carry yourself with a sense of confidence, self-acceptance,
and openness that makes you beautiful regardless of whether you physically look like a
supermodel. Beauty is a state of mind, not a state of your body.

4) Look at yourself as a whole person. When you see yourself in a mirror or in your mind,
choose not to focus on specific body parts. See yourself as you want others to see you -- as
a whole person.

5) Surround yourself with positive people. It is easier to feel good about yourself and your
body when you are around others who are supportive and who recognize the importance
of liking yourself just as you naturally are.

6) Shut down those voices in your head that tell you your body is not “right” or that you are a
“bad” person. You can overpower those negative thoughts with positive ones. The next
time you start to tear yourself down, build yourself back up with a few quick affirmations
that work for you.

7) Wear clothes that are comfortable and that make you feel good about your body. Work
with your body, not against it.

8) Become a critical viewer of social and media messages. Pay attention to images, slogans, or
attitudes that make you feel bad about yourself or your body. Protest these messages:
write a letter to the advertiser or talk back to the image or message.

9) Do something nice for yourself -- something that lets your body know you appreciate it.
Take a bubble bath, make time for a nap, find a peaceful place outside to relax.

10) Use the time and energy that you might have spent worrying about food, calories, and your
weight to do something to help others. Sometimes reaching out to other people can help
you feel better about yourself and can make a positive change in our world.

source: http://www.nationaleatingdisorders.org/nedaDir/files/documents/handouts/TenSteps.pdf

peace, hope and love,

Lily